Down the street...

I know the exams are just around the corner, but I can't stand it, I had to just let it out, I'm so depressed and down over everything, and It's really affecting me... And I know that I'm not the only one, everyone has their own problems, all just seem to be coming these last few days... I really feel sorry for myself and everyone... I feel bad, but at the same time understand why this is happening... And the solution? Let go, forget everything, lest we never met, and all...

That, in itself, is never easy... It's never easy to say goodbye or farewell to someone you really care for, who is part of your family, and is very close to you... To suddenly part ways is very hard, and after the exams, maybe it's time to settle everything... I guess it's the differences, those moments that defined it all, those moments that show that it's really hard to expect the same things to continue... People change, they adapt, and they forget... One minute they're very close to you and seem part of your family, the next thing they find someone else and then you're pretty much forgotten... =(

I guess it's reached the time to say goodbye to all my young friends and loved ones, and start to move on... I'm turning 20 next year, and I can't expect to still stay with people that are (quite) younger then me... I feel so old, and I'm trying to act young, but I cannot avoid that fact anymore, so I guess now is the time to get ready and be ready for 20's life... I missed the times, I am going to miss the people, especially certain friends, my bro and sis, all of whom I really love and care, and I will never forget them, they have been a huge part of my life, and I can't thank them enough...

All this while trying to be ready for exams, so forget everything for a week, study for exams, and then we'll see how...

I have the words, now I need the music...

(Without wanting to blow my own trumpet) I have the words in my head, all I need is the music... I have the melody in my head, and if I can learn the chords and music, I can write a song... Sometimes when i write songs, the melody is in my head, and it's hard to explain to people, because it's in my head, I can sing or hum it out...

I hope someday to turn my words into songs, and to the tune that I want it to sound like... Everyone has their own interpretations of songs, be it mine or someone else, and that is why it is hard to get the song to sound the way I intended it to be... Which is cool also, I get to hear other people's inter pretation of my songs, and my lyrics, to what they want it to sound like...

I love jazz and standards, as well as rock and blues, so you could say I'm all versatile.. Sometimes I write songs for one, sometimes for another, so that is another factor... Now play the music! XD!

Layer by Layer

One by one
The layers started to fall
The cracks begin to appear
On what was used to be

Your face your smile your touch
All just a fragment of my mind
Failure to deceive the host
All seem like lies to me

Every layer revealed
Every part of you
All lies and deceit
Just a part of the scheme

So why don't you get lost
Get out of my fragile mind
Begone all ye days of past
All a fragment of my imagination

Frustration boiling over

I hate to feel frustrated every Saturday night, stuck at home at nights, no friends for company, nothing to do but fool around, and everytime I want to see my sis, she go running of everytime, very frustrating to even get a moment to settle and talk to her, I mean, after all, she is my sis, but its very difficult... It's like im pushed way down the order... Now I know how Fernando Alonso feels, to be the 4th, 5th person, not the ones in front, but at the bottom... Every week I wait and wait, and eventually nothing happens...

The problem is if i go and talk to her about it, then problems will come up and she will say some things which might come to regret later; if I don't talk about it and keep quiet and get even more hurt, I'm the one that will feel hurt, confused and frustrated... Either way, I lose... It's very frustrating.. I know she doesn't mean it and she's a nice person, and all, but this is very frustrating, its like she's not my sis at all... I mean, since a few months ago already I wanted to plan to spend some time with my own sis, and it never happened, always there's something that is on... hmmmm...

I hate to feel frustrated and aggreived everytime I come home on a Saturday night, and I really can't stand it anymore.. I want to get out, go about town, hang out abit, go do some stuff, go around town, enjoy a couple of drinks, anything on a Saturday night... My life sucks, its so boring, I'm a total loser, people try to avoid me coz im not even close to be good looking... Once again, here it comes, that sense of rejection and avoidance... I'm daliancing with danger...

This is what happens when I have nothing better to do but sit around and feel all so lonely... Loneliness and boredom, a dangerous mix of cocktail... Whenever I feel down and all, I love to watch some tennis matches, beacuse unlike football, Im watching to learn a thing or two, and distract my mind off the real world... At least I'm watching brilliant passing shots and forehand winners rather that backstabbing and bullshit of the world... That's what it is to me now...

Watching tennis matches really helps calm the mind down, and you can learn so much from watching and listening to the commentators, former players et al. Brilliant. Or even badminton, for those of you more inclined to this, like me, I love to watch both... But NOT football, never watch it when your team is losing and you're on a dogfight of a life, it will only make matters worse... Go out, have a hit on the tennis or badminton court with your pals and kids, nice excercise...

For now, guess I'll head into bed with an uneasy mind and a broken heart... Try that... This world sucks...

Sorrow...

I am so not looking forward to turning 20 so soon... It feels like just yesterday I was sweet 16 and enjoying life, now in a few months time I have to say goodbye to my teenage years, and not enjoying life at all now... Gosh if only I can turn back time... Too late for regrets...

I don't know why, I am just not enjoying life as much as I used to, maybe its all the work, assignments, INTIMA, and all... To be honest, I still can't believe I'm in my college student body, I don't know whether I can handle the responsibilites or not, and whether I can do a good job or not... And honestly I'm still not ready for it, there's gonna be alot of work, I hope it will not distract my studies and diploma, that comes 1st, if at any time it clashes with my studies, then maybe I have to leave the student body to concentrate on my diploma...

On life, It seems that I'm not enjoying it as much as I used to... I've kinda lost my way around now, and I don't seem to know what to do.. Even simple things, I screw up... It's very hard.. As soon as the exams are over, I really need to do some soul searching and clear up the air with some people... It's getting more and more tough... I am confident though I can go through my studies, I will... It's the other aspects that is dragging me down...

Lately as I got older, I seemed to blog less, until recently, when I would blog every few days, back to the old days, when everytime I have something to let out, here comes my bloggie to be there for me... =) hehe... better than people, sometimes they're there for you, sometimes they don't care about you... No wonder the quality of life is deteriorating more and more... Sorrow fills the air...

I'm supposed to be doing my assignment now, but I don't know how to do it, so close to completion, only a part away, but that part is hard for me to elaborate, as I can't find the neccesary information anywhere... haizz... Guess after this I have to work on it real hard!

They say you only appreciate the ones you love after they're gone, and it's especially true here, I've been missing my best friends who are all studying here and there now, and especially the ones that really helped me alot and all... I really miss you all, and I hope you all come back to KK soon... =(

Why is my heart so in pain and sorrow now? When I should be happy at what I have and all the people around me? Is it because of one or two that really matter?

Feeling let down and used... again... broken record....

Still thinking about that dream I had, and still the effects are there on me, it was so powerful, so wonderful yet the realisation is so shocking... It was bittersweet...

I'm really emotionally tired, it has been a stressful year and all, one of the most enjoyable but equally one of the most frustrating as well... Being nice and caring does not pay off, believe me... I can't believe I'm so far down the order of certain people now... If they are not with their partners, they're with their friends... When they are bored or they need some help, then they look for me, otherwise they all forgot about me... When I go looking for their them, they don't bother and take me for granted... And its those that are close to me, not simply any friends...

I feel as if slowly I'm being played out and left farther and farther in the cold by my own people, my own siblings, who for instance, never bother to send me a hello or how ya doing and all... I can't blame them, they're not my own siblings, after all I don't have any blood relations... But I felt that they can do more and after all the promises and words that was said, it's kinda letting down...

If you think I'm childish, fine, I won't contest that, coz its true, I admit it, but I'm not childish to a point where I suffer in my studies... That has never been a problem for me so far, and for a point to prove, I got the Merit award in my college with my classmate and friends... I'm also grown up now where I can stop and explain myself for every action, and to justify it... And I hope my studies will continue to do well...

It's hard for me to even get a sibling's moment with them, what else if they're busy all the time? I will just have to wait and wait... Time waits for no men, they say, so there has to be a limiting point, question is when will that be? Everytime I have a moment I want to share, all I can do is share it her to my dear bloggie...When I want to talk about things and just have a talk, only my bloggie is available... What a sad life...

My poor blog, my place to let out my feelings, my thoughts, emotions, everything over the last 6 years and counting... I really love you, my bloggie, coz your the only one who would listen to me and all... Gosh what am I saying?! hahahaha... Yup its true bah... At the end of the day, here I am in my blog... Not with friends, not with my family (they're watching TV outside), not with my brothers and sisters (they all forgot about me suda... haha!), but my blog... Life... Sounds like a broken record rite? Well, that's my life, broken...

Over the years I can't count how many times I've been heartbroken, used, let down and all, really sounds like a broken record... If you all read this and think, haiya broken record betul2, ada saja, then I'm sorry, what can I say? Friends are around to help us up and cheer us up, and if you think I'm a broken record, then I don't know you well...

Wish I can just get out of this place and start afresh, no one knows me, only me against the world... That would be a dream... Reality? One damn assignment waiting and exams in 2 weeks, then 2 months holiday.. At least I have 2 months to plan my next month and settle everything, and hope what I feel above is no longer there...

I guess this is my longest post in a long time because I simply cannot stand my heart in pain anymore, and I have lots to say, so I'm sorry bloggie... =) I have lots to say these last few weeks, and I've been keeping it in my heart so long... Time to let the cat out of the bag.. But no matter what I say, I will still love you all and promise to be friends forever k! <3 I will still love my brothers and sisters no matter how much they may have hurt me or let me down, I will still be there for them until they decide otherwise... <3

Guess that's it... now back to the boring real world...

The nights of wonder...

It finally happened... I cracked... I burst into tears... Confusion... Happiness... Sadness... Regret... Tears flew down all over and there was no one there to be with me, for I was alone... All alone in tears... The best and worst rolled into one...

It started when I went to sleep at midnight, as usual, nothing different.. Then I had a wonderful dream, that was really touching, and it involved my dear friends, bro and sis, whom I miss very much, and seldom able to talk to, and in the dream, I was with them and it was a fun atmosphere, it was really wonderful... For once I felt that sense of belonging, that sense of family, and all, and I really enjoyed it... But then I woke up after I had a short breath... I knew I had to wake up, it was ending, and I was suffering, I couldn't breathe, so I woke up....

When I woke up, it all seemed so real, so life like, but when I turned around and I looked around my room, I knew it was only a dream... I felt so happy, then I started crying, and I felt sad, because I knew that the dream will never come true... So I cried again and again, and it was 1.30 am, i only slept for an hour plus, but I couldn't sleep anymore, I wanted to cry, and just sat blank...

I think all the pressure, all the pain, all the situation in my life had reached somewhat of a braking point... I couldn't take it anymore, I was suffering for too long inside my heart... This cry of pain probably was the burst... I was happy, yes, but upon realisation that it was a dream, it turned to sadness... I really want that dream again, and I want it to come true, because it was what I'd always wanted: family and friends....

This last few weeks has been really tough for me emotionally, and even though I'm doing well in my studies, that couldn't hide the pain I feel inside...

I love you bro and sis, and I hope that this dream will come true... I managed to talk to you, hang out with you, and we talked and talked as if it was really my family... But now I know that will never happen...

Perhaps the only way I will ever feel happy again is to leave this place and start all over again in another town...

I had to let this out...

I've had a weird week or two, and it's been a tough ride... I don't know why, just now in the afternoon, I just had the sudden urge to walk away from college and go to the nearby beach up the road... Its like, walk and walk and walk, and then reflect in the beach... It just came to me, and heck I nearly did it if i didn't have any meeting... It was like I wanted to get away from this world that hurt so much but equally, love so much as well...

It's been a tough week, and lots of doubts are in my head, and being injured with a sore back and shoulder didnt help... Everytime I start to think about my crush, and all, I start to get happy, then get sad, because I know I won't be able to be with her, coz of a few reasons... And I start to doubt myself, will I ever get a partner, whether I can have one, handle it and all... And slowly I begin to get sad with doubts... It's really bad....

Everytime I'm with friends, bro and sis, I feel happy, but when I go home, suddenly loneliness creeps in again, in this room, with no one around me... It's gettin pretty boring... I reach home and all sorts of wishes come into my head... Life alone really is boring... geez... Work and assignments aren't helping but hindering, and I can't wait for the holidays, then I can plan what I want to do for my future, and welcome any plans that will be forthcoming...

Life's up and down, that's life, and now hopefully after this downs, there will be ups... If only I had just walked to the beach and just let it all out, I would be much more relaxed...

I love you all, but I just don't know whether I can love you all really or not... That's how bad my self doubt is...

Guitar man

Once there was a man
And his guitar
They thrilled the world
With their songs and laughs

They toured the world
To filled out stadiums and fans
One after another
A big rollercoaster

Years gone by like sand
What was once a show
Was now a silence
Consigned to the past

With his broken strings he played on
Without a murmur or sight
As the days begin numbered
The end approaching near

Broken strings, broken heart
What does it matter?
Once on top, now bottom out
Keep playing on....

Only

The day's bright and lovely
The sun's shining brightly
You look so lovely
The one love and only

The scene's so lovely
Bright shining lightly
Your face surrounds brightly
Im gonna snap this down slowly

The air's just calm and damp
The breeze is so lovely
Nothing can compare to
The beauty that shines from your face

The sun's slowly setting to the back
The night sky is emerging
No matter what time of day it is
Your radiance will shine forevermore...

Lessons in time...

Look at the fellas down south
Doing so well in their tender years
Watching the vast fields of grey
For the foreign legion

With weapons in hand
And their backs to the wall
One by one they march
To fulfill the dreams of a nation

The answer is not war but love
The weapons are not guns but flowers
The lesson that we all have to learn
Is right in our hands

One by one the bombs go down
Matter of minutes and lives
Innocent ones gone together
At what price we have to pay?

Remember this forever, son
Never start a war
Never fight an unfair fight
Or it will never end...

Time for a change...

Sometimes I just feel like changing, going away, walking away from everything and everyone, and just go far away... I just feel that now I'm no longer wanted here, like I'm only a disturbance to everyone... It's better just to get away from it all and start a new life elsewhere... Again, this is not quitting, but walking away, to prevent any more heartbreaks...

I mean, I care for people, but I don't seem to get that in return... This few days has been really crap, awful, and boring, and no one even bother to text me or drop me a line... When i say Hi or drop a line to people, i get no reply... Fine, if no one wants to talk to me, fine, so be it... And if your reading this and laughing and saying "Baru tau, sepa suruh" and all that crap, you dont know the full story...

Feels just like walking away... I've been so kind and caring enough, but funny enough, that brought so much more heartaches then being an ass and a bad person... Fine... This is what happens when I reach the crossroads... Susah2 I worry about ppl when they don't respond my text, then never reply me again... hmmph...

I really can't stand this anymore, I really want to let it all out... I wish I can just stop now, and release all this emotional baggage.. But I can't... My college again... haihh...

Pondering the next move...

Gone but not forgotten

What do you do when you learn there’s no tomorrow
Hold hands, sing songs
Live life, till you’re gone
But not forgotten...

What do you do when you’re sad and heavy laden
You reach deep and beyond
Give love, till you’re gone
But not forgotten...

For those who went before
Why are they remembered?
They held our hands and sang their songs
Lived their lives ‘till they were gone
But not forgotten...

Find your light, turn it on
Shine it down on everyone...

(This is a very nice song by Peter Frampton, Gone But Not Forgotten, and it's a poignant tribute to those who have gone before us, and continue to live in us... Respect...)

The long highway...

I might just call it a day... I've had a fantastic experience, I wouldn't trade it for anything... So it's fair that I'm gonna call it quits, hang up my boots and racing gloves, and do something else in life that's more worthwhile and relaxing, like fishing..

It's been a crazy ride, and I'm prepared to see out the remaining year of my diploma, and then venture away to somewhere far, and develop myself and gain new experiences... I'm getting stale and stagnant here, I'm not making any progress, and I'm keen to move out and learn... Don't get me wrong, I love it here, I don't really want to leave my friends and family behind, but I see that with all of them properly taken care of, and seeing that they don't need my help and care anymore, it's only time that I call it a day here and move on...

I can't lie, the reason I stayed here was because I had unfinished business, and now that's finished (actually, scrapped), I had to stay coz of family, and also some friends that I wanted to take care of... Now that they all are alright already, and since I'm of no need anymore, and they're all happy, this is a good time to start a new adventure... If it wasn't because of my cousins and friends, whom all I care for and really love, I would have left much earlier... They are the reason I'm still here.. Now that everything's settled...

My dream is to go to Europe, continue my studies, and venture into the Eastern Bloc, and learn all about the cultures... And finally, my favourite country Spain, I plan to finally settle there, in any region of Spain, preferably Barcelona/Catalonia... That is possible, now I have a year to make it a reality, make all the plans, and get it going!

So Europe here I come! Viva La Espana! Amigos, cabron, salute el campeones!

Time flies before you really know it...

Wow, it's August already, time flies by really fast.. It's been a hectic year so far... So many things and exams in college, and no more Lifeteen, and my job in RAY... yeah, it's been a rollercoaster...

At this time last year, everyone, and me myself included, were welcoming the Beijing Olympics, and what a spectacle it was, it was awesome! The Olympics was one I will remember for a long time... And Lee Chong Wei made it all the way to the final, unfortunately losing to Lin Dan... But a silver medal is a great acheivement, so congrats to him!

This year has been a rollercoaster, with everything thrown out the window, and starting all over again... The initial shock that it was the end of an era in LT, was quickly gotten over by duties in RAY, and LT again, albeit only for the camp, but it was good... I really had a great time in RAY camp, being a leader, and that gave me a lot of experiences... And then there was LT camp, becoming a volunteer, and that was a different experience, and I enjoyed it, gave me a different perspective on the camp, and being a volunteer was fun and tiring, and thanks to my 7 fellow friends and volunteers for making it fun! haha... That also gave me experience, and it's nice...

Besides that, now and then there is Leadership Meeting by Derek for us leaders in RAY, and that has been good... I missed once coz i was busy (read: overslept.. XD!) and bsides that, it was cool.. haha... Thanks to the RAY leaders and fellow friends... lol..

Also, this year has been really topsy turvy, with many happy and sad moments, but that's normal, that's life, gotta move on, no point crying over spilt milk de... haha... I have friends, brothers, sisters, cousins I can count on, right? XD! haha... I hope that I can be friends with all of ya until im old... haha... XD! I had some great moments with many of ya, and I will always cherish and remember them yah...

Also, recently I had to say goodbye to friends who were gonna study away from KK, like Rick, Cassie, Trish and Mark, gonna miss them.. Rick, i'm gonna miss my buddy, my bro, my (ahem!) banger... hahahaha! XD! Mark, stop calling me Lee Chong Wei.. hahaha! bah all da best man... XD! Cassie and Trish, gonna miss ya, you've been a good friend... hehe...

It's kinda funny how until now, I never had a girlfriend or even a date... It sounds strange, and I myself wonder sometimes, why don't I make the move? Guess its not the right one... I dunno, guess I don't have what it takes for now... soon...

It's almost the end of the semester, and soon (next week 10 august!) we will be having our final exams! so near and havent even studied yet! huhu... hope I can get good results dis sem, and bulid on it... its been a steady 4th sem in college, in contrast to the previous rollercoaster 3rd sem in january to april... that was a hectic one... so to all my college friends, good luck and all the best for your final exams! gambate!

To end this ramblings, reflections and thoughts, I just wana say Happy Friendship Week! take care!

Battle We Have Won...

This is a nice song by Eric Johnson, very beautiful...

Everywhere are hearts and empty hands,
With no one there, to understand,
Future dreams, you're searching for a clue,
That sun don't shine, you never mind.

Don't get too discouraged in this life,
It's just a game, for now we play.
And soon or later things can work out right
This you must know, just wait and see
And after everything is said and done,
This can be another battle we have won.

All across the view, hills of desires,
The Knights, the Kings, the Queens, The Squires.
The serenading dreams, bound tears of hope,
They start to fall, keep standing tall.

So, don't get too discouraged in this life,
It's just a stage, we act upon.
Soon or later things, they work out right,
The sun will shine, the night will dawn.
And after everything is said and done,
This can be another battle we have won.

So don't get too discouraged in this life,
Our thoughts can breathe, sonnets of love.
Soon the winds of change will make it right,
This you must know, just wait and see.
And after everything is said and done,
This can be another battle we have won--

In this life,
We'll set the sail, inside above.
Soon or later things they work out right
This you must know, just wait and see.
Lord, after everything is said and done,
This can be another battle we have won.

I can't stand it...

Firstly, I'm sorry if this is going to upset a few of you, I don't mean to hurt anyone, but I can't take this anymore, I need to let this out, and I'm not criticising anyone in particular, but this in general...

I feel so lonely, I am lonely, yes I have many friends, but when the chips are down, when I need somebody to come and comfort me, it doesn't happen... All my life, I have been caring for friends, letting them know I'm there for them, being there, comforting them, and being a good friend, but when I'm the one who's down, no one comes to me... How cruel... The moments tonight seem to sum up everything, and where it's all gone wrong... It's like I'm wasting my time here... It's good enough I come every week just to meet up with friends, even if it's for a while, but then, what's the use if it's not appreciated? It's like a waste...

A year ago, I made my mind up to continue my studies here, due to a variety of reasons, family, environment, unfinished business... Now, looking back, there might be some mistakes in the decisions that I made... Or simply, I'm starting to regret staying here...

Now looking back, I had the best time during the Christmas period, where everything just seem to come off, every plan paid off, and I had a wonderful time... That was also in part due to my decision... I had the best times with friends and cousins, and I will always remember those moments... I wish I can relive them again...

People say I have alot of friends, yes, but most of them are just accquaintances, friends whom you've got to know and occasionally have the odd banter or two... Sometimes I feel like a loner, a lonely boy in a populous town, with the surroundings breezing past me... I feel like I'm alone, with no friends, no one contacts me, or says Hi... I hate this feeling... And I hate being alone... I've been alone for far too long in my life...

Sometimes we make decisions in life that we may cherish or regret for life... Time will tell if those that I made will be either... In other words, hope that I can get the respect and friendship that I give out to others...

It's back to Ground Zero...

Writing works

Everytime I come up with a song or extract, its not as easy as it seems... Everything that I wrote, alot of emotional pain and concentration goes to writing that song, making sure you get your idea in the song, present it in a connecting way, and writing what you mean... It is not easy...

I remember whenever I was down, I used to have a book, where I wrote song after song as an outlet of all those emotions, just writing them down in songs, and seeing where the story goes... One of the fond memories I have when writing these songs is turning them into life, well almost...

I recall I like to spend time on Sunday mornings, after mass, spend time in the canteen, and hang out with friends, then doing some songs, and Julie Melissa and Francess were also there to help... It was last year, and I really miss that time, coz it was fun doing that...

Sometimes I will write many songs on paper, then lately I wrote many songs here on FB Notes, and some of my past notes are actually songs I've written, and I will try to make it come alive.. One time in December 2007, when I was so down emotionally and mentally, I wrote many songs about that, the feeling, and the pain... Then slowly I woke up again, and put that past behind me...

Still, its interesting to revisit my school years, and the months after school, before college, when everything was so free, no committment, no classes, free, yet everyday there was this emotional baggage hanging over me, so songs were a way of letting that baggage go... That key period of my life was good for writing songs...

Some songs that I did, after I listen to instrumentals, then I get the inspiration, other times I just write what I feel in songs... I love music, but there's always that big stumbling block, a person, a thing, a career, and its hard... Sometimes you cant do what you really love, but I don't mind doing what I'm studying now, just that I wish I can expand this area of me, the music side...

I love music, I love writing songs, I love the experience of it, and what comes along with it... And writing all that was not easy...

I on U

Travelling through the city
On a nice cloudy night
People passing by down the street
Without a bother, what do they care?

A warm sense of mystery surrounds me
As I walk down the streets alone
Jazzy music fills the air in my head
The memories of the night

As I walk down the road all alone
Thoughts of loved ones fill the head
Instances of past travels come anew
Just I and U

A cool summer night that breeze on by
Looking at the photographs
Of faces and places familiar
That will never be revisited again

Somehow the image of myself
Walking down the night
With that lonesome song in my head
Fills the air with mystery

They say yesterday's history
Tomorrow's a mystery
And the present is a gift
A wonderful one indeed

After all these years
I finally end up
Where I started it all
Alone...

As I stumble my way back
The writing's on the wall
Guess I better get my way out
Back to my home...

(This is a song I wrote after listening to some Jazz music that everytime i listen, I think of the past year, my friends, family, and holiday...)

Only the young...

"Only the young can say,
They're free to fly away,
Sharing the same desires..."

Yeah, just back from the LT bazaar, which was ok, but not as happening as last year, coz not many people came to support... Oh come on man, where are the people? Where's the support? Sayang oh.. Lots of great food, great stuff, but not many people... Still, it was a fun night, great night, even though not many people and its just the Lifeteeners and the usual suspects... hehe... and there were lots of food! XD! Sad that many people that I invited couldn't make it for one reason or another, but It's alright... I had a good time, and one chance to be with Lifeteen again... It's not everytime I can return, so make the most of every opportunity... hehe...

"Don't stop believing
Hold on to that feeling,
Streetlights, people..
Don't stop believing..."

Today is Sunday already, near 1 am, and this is my last day of holiday, gonna miss it.. Now it's back to the stress of everyday classes, assignments and stuff, and back after my results that were quite bad.. Now my average GPA is gonna go down... Im not happy, expected higher, but still its a pass... Monday is a new semester, so gotta live with it.. And its already been a year I've been in colllege... Great, another year and 4 months to go... hehe... Here we go!

"Here we go gathering cups in May..."
... and hopefully we get the biggest one, the Premier League... Come on Liverpool!

You'll Never Walk Alone! YNWA!