Freedom

Freedom. What is freedom? Is it being free in our minds to be capable of achieving anything? Or is it being free to explore the world and all it's wonders, and walk around?

Ever since starting this job, I have missed so much all those things I took for granted; being able to go to many places and just relax, meet friends or just have some valuable personal time, do the things I can do, like exercise and all, and so much more, yet now, I can't do those things anymore, only on weekends...

Every time I come home from work, I end up tired and trying to push myself to exercise sometimes can be very tough, and I am still trying my best... And I miss having that time to myself where I can relax and think and broaden my horizons...

I feel that my talents in music and photography are slowly fading away, and it's gonna be wasted if I don't do something about it... Honestly, when I was in SoW in Singapore, so much was revealed to me by God, you know, it was such a wonderful time, and from there I really wanted to pursue music, and I started slowly last year, and I had so many more plans, and then...

You know there's something fundamentally wrong with our society and culture when you say you want to pursue a career in music, and straightaway get rebuked, or shrugged off... To me, there's nothing wrong with it, yet time after time when I wanted to pursue it further, I get pushed away from it, and forced to get a real job... And here I am...

I really loved doing music, loved playing, practicing, I didn't mind the hard work, because it's something I loved, but to see it now in the back seat, kinda saddens me, but this is the real world, so I am not surprised... However, there should be a change in mentality and the way we look at arts in general, and seeing that there is a future... I've seen friends gone on to do so well in music, fashion, drawing/painting, photography, theatre, dance, and many more, so why not? Why shouldn't there be more widespread acceptance and understanding that there is a future to arts, and encourage your kids instead of discouraging them...

One day, I may just drop everything and go for what I truly love, and I don't mind being hounded for it... Or else what is there to life and living if we can't even make use of our God-given talents?