All about...

... besties! haha! Well, yeah, I'm happy! But it's not what you think why... No, I haven't got a girlfriend, far from it! It's just that I'm happy I'm close with those whom matter, my closest friends, cousins and siblings... Over time I've realised and learnt who were my true friends, and nothing is ever rosy or smooth sailing... There will be times when we argue, have differences, but at the end of the day, we're still best friends, and I'm glad and happy I've gotten closer to those whom I truly appreciate and care for!

Yeah, lately I've discovered and learnt alot, through the dark times, the pain, and from the bottom of the pit, I've managed to climb back up, and hopefully this time I won't fall back down so easily... I've just gotta stay focused, positive, just think nothing's gonna go wrong, and that they're there for me, and I'm there for them! Hopefully this time I'm gonna continue learning and appreciating whom I have now... I don't care I don't have a girlfriend, I'm just happy to have them! =D

Lately I've been hainging out with my sis and bestfriends, and it's nice to actually be with people that I can trust, talk to no worries, and actually not like that person! haha! I'm actually closer to girls than guys, 'cause it seems I can trust them more and connect with them =) but of course there are my guy bestfriends from school and life ;) so I guess equal balance also... haha! Hanging out and studying, playing games, and just having fun and studying at the same time, it's nice man! After all the drama and problems I had this year, just to have this is already great! I thank God I have such wonderful besties! ^^

Thank God that I have such wonderful people around me, and I really appreciate them so much! Here's to everyone! ^^

Waiting for the end...

This is not the end, this is not the beginning
Just a voice like a riot rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone and the violent rhythm
Though the words sound steady something empty's within them
We say yeah with fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something that's invisible there
Cause we're living at the mercy of the pain and the fear
Until we dead it, forget it, let it all disappear

Waiting for the end to come
Wishing I had strength to stand
This is not what I had planned
It's out of my control
Flying at the speed of light
Thoughts were spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid
It's hard to let you go

I know what it takes to move on
I know how it feels to lie
All I want to do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got

Sitting in an empty room
Trying to forget the past
This was never meant to last
I wish it wasn't so

I know what it takes to move on
I know how it feels to lie
All I want to do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got

What was left when that fire was gone
I thought it felt right but that right was wrong
All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it's like moving on
And I don't even know what kind of things I said
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead
So I'm picking up the pieces, now where to begin
The hardest part of ending is starting again

All I want to do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got
I'm holding on to what I haven't got
I'm holding on to what I haven't got

This is not the end, this is not the beginning
Just a voice like a riot rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone and the violent rhythm
Though the words sound steady something empty's within them
We say yeah with fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something that's invisible there
Cause we're living at the mercy of the pain and the fear
Until we dead it, forget it let it all disappear...

Cool song from Linkin Park, one I'm thinking of doing live... but I need a band or at least a backing track and a partner to sing the other part, as with Chester and Mike... hmmm... excited thinking about it! XD!

Far From Heaven

No one truly has the answers
Every day I struggle through it once more
Keep things bottled up, never speaking my mind
Misinterpreted, I'm doing just fine 

Every day I put a brave face on, serves me well
Feeling helpless, facing it alone, hard to tell
That I can change who I am, how I feel, there's no end

I have done what you asked of me

Leaves me nothing to live for

Coming undone, way too high a price I should pay
You keep your pride while I die inside every day
No I can't lie anymore, won't pretend I've done all I can

You can't imagine the hell I'm going through
Not asking you to save me
I'm too far from heaven

Nothing you can do to change me
But accept me as I am...

A beautiful song by Dream Theater, and I think it perfectly encapsulates

 how I feel about someone, and I wish that person knew, but of course it 

would be a personal disaster if I were to ever say it! So what better way 

to express it then with a song... Best way...