The Last Song I'll Write For You

I can tell something’s not the same
Cause we’re both losing at the loving game
We’re hanging from words and your tongue is on fire
And I can’t keep putting out the flames

There was a time when you could tell the world
That you, you knew I would fight for you
You knew I would fight for you
But now I know that I can let you go
Cause I wrote the last song I’ll write for you
The last song I’ll write for you

I’ve been waiting just to feel this way
Where my night’s not made by every day
That you ever had, the good and the bad cause I
I’m through calling out your name

There was a time when you could tell the world
That you, you knew I would fight for you
You knew I would fight for you
But now I know that I can let you go
Cause I wrote the last song I’ll write for you
The last song I’ll write for you

We’re just drifting apart
Two beats in two different hearts
Before I say goodnight, I want you to know

There was a time when you could tell the world
That you, you knew I would fight for you
You knew I would fight for you
But now I know that I can let you go
Cause I wrote the last song I’ll write for you
The last song I’ll write for you

Now I know that I can let you go
Cause I wrote the last song I’ll write for you
This is the last song I’ll write for you

Looking to the future...

Every successful organisation, team or company moves forward at every instant, building on what they acheived and improving or taking things to the next level... Sometimes changes need to be made; in every company there will be employees who will come and go; in every team players come and go, they change every now and then, but the team remains...

Sometimes it hurts to get too attached to loved ones; I can say right now I feel so, so hurt, but I understand what's going on... Still, there comes a time when this gets too much to handle, and it's time to let go... I love them so much for different reasons and circumstances, but now it's best to not get too attached and let go... I can't stand being taken for granted, being ignored, not being appreciated for what I do for them, when I'm always there for them, and being "graded" lower than their friends, when I've known them for years and years... I thought we were close, I thought you'd value me higher, I guess I'm wrong, nice to know where I stand, this is not some simple thing, this has been going on for months!

If things don't start to change, if they don't realise what's going on, if they continue to leave me behind or put me aside, or take me for granted, then it's time to have a talk, and if there is a difference of opinion, then it's best to go our separate ways..

I should have known this was coming....

Lines on my face...

I am so tired of everything, tired of life, tired of trying to handle and manage my life now, with everything that's going on, one day I may just explode and spill everything and leave, maybe one day when I tell everything then you'll realize how much have I kept inside my heart, how much I got hurt but still I carried on, how much things are going on that no one knows, one day...

Lately these past 2 weeks I realize alot of things that, honestly, made me disappointed and sad, but that's life, I've gotta move on and fight on... What I realize is that when you're down in the shits, no one really cares, whatever they said or promised, most of it are lies, or they have selective memory, or they just don't care... I don't expect anyone to be there on my deathbed anymore or even at my funeral, I'm a realist, and I don't care, why should I when people don't?

If you really mean what you say, you'll do it, get back to me, or even just remember it, simple no? Most of the time, they don't... Also, I gotta learn not to get too attached to someone very close to me, it seems that things aren't what they seem anymore... That's the thing when people grow up; friendships get put aside, they focus on certain things, and that's normal, but if what she's focusing on doesn't include me in her life, then that's it, time to part ways...

Motivation is a very strong thing; too much and it can get out of hand; too little and giving up would be easy... It's not easy to manage it sometimes; right now, I don't feel motivated to continue my current job, and I think now I need a move away to really kick-start my life again, just as I did during SoW... Those 2 months were really great; they were right when they said it wasn't going to be easy coming back... In hindsight, I wish I stayed and continued to discern...

One day this will all come to pass, as George Harrison once sang, "all things must pass away" and one day I won't be here anymore, when is that day, only God knows...