A tuneful of emotions...

I should be so happy now after what happened today, yet as I settle down in my room, I tend to feel down, as if it was all a dream, and have to face the world tomorrow, back to normal, with the happy memories of today still fresh in the mind... After a high, here comes the low... But I really had a great day today, I got to spend time with my best friend, it's not everyday we can spend time, especially now that everyone's busy... So that's why I cherish and love every moment with my besties, loved ones, especially those I haven't met in a while...

This month has been a very good month indeed, so many memories, and moments to remember... It started on 1st July with an outing with my classmates from school, and how much I miss them alot! It was a fun day out with them... I was with Lorenzo, Diniy, Ray, Zeff, Anthea, Sammy, and it was awesome to be able to hangout with them again! We went to KKBox, then Suria to watch movie, then Waterfront for dinner... It was an awesome day! Miss ya all ow! =D

Then after Lifeline Armour Up Camp, I started to go to Lifeline, besides serving in RAY now... It's a nice new experience, besides serving in RAY, so yeah! The best of both worlds... ahaha!

Then the Convent concert, I went to support my sis Bianca for her choir, and yeah the concert was nice... The surprise was seeing Empty Papers perform, my friends performing! hahaha! It was an awesome show, too bad about the sound system, which was off... If not, it would have been a rocking show! Of course the main purpose was to see the choir... It was nice, and I enjoyed it, the rest of the performances as well... If can I want to support her every performance possible! U go Bianca! =D

After that, THE FINAL on 11th July, 12th July here Malaysian time, and we all know what happened... VIVA ESPANA! LA FURIA ROJA! SPAIN are the WORLD CHAMPIONS! YEAHHHH! Even now I still feel the same rush of blood, the same excitement, relief, happiness, proudness, just pure pure emotion and victorious spirit!! Spain, 2010 World Cup Winners! YEAH!!!! COME ON SPAIN! A por ellos! A por ellos!

Then the night I will never forget, what a night with my 2 besties, 2 of the finest and hottest prospects and musical talents in Malaysia, Lorenzo and Anthea! Those 2 can sing! They can sing! It's smokin hot!! Their covers are awesome and nice! And to have the *ahem!* honour to be able to join them and record with them is brilliant! ahaha... Those 2 really have talent... (I wonder if they read this, will they kembang to the max? XD!) It was an awesome night, and it was fun! We got to record at Anthea's place, then went out for dinner an Upperstar, nice! Then we headed back before going home... And it was nice to test Loren's driving "skills", nice2... XD! One to remember! hahaha!

Then last Sunday I went out with my bestfriend, Jacquelene Danica, and we hung out and went to watch movie before she leaves for KL again... Gonna miss ya Jac! Had a fun day out with ya! hehe... Nice oh the movie "Despicable Me"! So cute and funny, and at the same time touching! awww! =D It's been a while since I met her, since CNY, so yeah it was nice to meet up again... ^^v

Which leads to today, Sunday, 25 July, my dad's birthday, and also celebrating RAY 9th Anniversary, and had a great day with my bestie Angelica Subil! hahaha... It was a fun day, although I was sick, I just ignored it and had a blast! XD!

So it's been a wonderful month! XD! VIVA ESPANA!

Confusion...

maybe being heartbroken makes it easier to leave this place and go away... this is not running away from the situation, but trying to start a new life...

seriously, I don't even understand myself anymore... ='( and the sad part is, I don't know how long it'll take for me to ever be OK again, maybe never forever...

I used to be this happy, friendly, happy go lucky kinda guy with no sort of worries or pressures, just enjoying life and taking on challenges that really attract me... but now I've become some sort of this recluse, being all to myself, and not being open anymore... I've become more and more reclusive and shy, back to last time...

Take you all the way back then, when I was a shy little kid with a shy attitude, and actually now I'm still abit shy, I don't talk much except to my best friends, then you'll see a different me, talkative and annoying.... hahaha! But yeah, I'm very shy when it comes to people, yet if I wanna talk and lead, I can be brave and different, just as long as they tell me what to do, then I'm confident... but if it's one on one with people, than that's a different matter altogether...

Why I bring this up is because I think my withdrawn personality and shyness has costed me alot of opportunities, to do stuff, to make a difference, because of my shy and timidness... Such as being invited for outings or hangouts... Nowadays I rarely go out except if I bring people out, or my best friends bring me out... That's why now I rarely go out and watch movies, and I'm so outdated, except if I happen to watch that movie or so on... Sometimes if I really get depressed then I would really hate going out because I'm gonna be all alone or no friends, but on the other hand I'm stuck at home nothing to do all alone, same thing... Conclusion? My life's lonely.... VERY...

There comes a time where I hated it, I hated being lonely, and I really miss them, and yet people don't understand... Some people think because I'm shy, that I'm snobbish, I'm proud, etc... Actually I'm just really really shy and don't know what to say... I gotta admit I have to improve my PR skills... The loneliness makes me miss my loved ones more and more, and I wish I can see them now and just forget all my worries... haizz...