Awaken...

Will I ever be happy again? It seems everytime I am happy, something always make me think twice and make me sad... I hate this bittersweet feeling everytime, it's like I can't be happy anymore, I always keep getting sad... Like the time I spent with my bestfriends, I was so happy to see them and go to the orchestra, then when I went home, I felt sad coz soon all of them will be going away, and I'm gonna miss them alot =(

Heart of life...

Mine's broken but fine... Confused? XD!

Yeah, i'm broken down but just fine... Why you may ask? This ain't the first time, and neither will be the last time, so have a ball, just go with the flow and make things better... And write plenty of songs, jam on the guitar, anything to ease the broken pain...

Lately I must say I've been havin' fun learning new stuff on the guitar, playing better, and now able to play some tunes as well... Better late then never! =) Learning to play some tunes now and hopefully be able to play better... I'm learning all of this now when I should have at 16, but nevermind... Now at least you won't accuse me of not knowing how to play... XD!

Driving license's almost done, feel confident but nervous still about it, because it's the final exam, the JPJ one, where they will test in the area and out on the road... Problem is, inside they'll use the crappy Kancil instead of the tutor's Viva, which I'm already used to... Oh man... This will be challenging... XD!

It's funny that I'm only learning those two now at a later age, when I can ace exams and study well and score every exam... Guess I'm a late learner in certain aspects and things... And the next area I really want to improve is my photography skills... Music and photography are my two main loves!

All this and life's so much more enjoyable! Still the heartbreak lingers, the words echo, the moments reflected and shattered, and most of all, drifting apart... I hope we will never drift apart, but we never know the human heart, I won't want us to drift, but it's all up to her...

It's funny looking back at how things have progressed, how the people around me have progressed and changed, or new friends met and kept close, and old ones drifting apart... Life's full of changes, and I think everytime I've learnt to adapt, how many times have I done so, and I'm confident in myself to do it again if ever needed...

Here's something I got off Tumblr and I thought it really hit the point, and was really relevant:

"At this age, everything is changing. Day by day we don’t notice, but just look back over the past year and you will realize everything has. People you thought were going to be there forever aren’t, and people you never imagined you’d be speaking to are now some of your closest friends. Life makes little sense, and the more we grow the less sense it will make. So make the most of now, before it all changes once again, because in the near future, all of this is only going to be memories."

What really hit me was all of it... And now I start to enjoy the moments, instead of trying to recreate them in the future coz maybe I will never get the chance again, so now I change my approach to life, not neccesarily because of that post, but after reflecting and looking at the situation...

I guess in the end, not everything lasts forever... Some will, some won't... It all depends on us, how much we want it to last forever, and how much we love to keep it that way...