Awaken...

Will I ever be happy again? It seems everytime I am happy, something always make me think twice and make me sad... I hate this bittersweet feeling everytime, it's like I can't be happy anymore, I always keep getting sad... Like the time I spent with my bestfriends, I was so happy to see them and go to the orchestra, then when I went home, I felt sad coz soon all of them will be going away, and I'm gonna miss them alot =(