I just don't know what to do or say...

Sometimes I really feel tired, had enough... I really want to break down and cry again... Why do I always get hurt, especially by the ones closest to me? I love them so much yet one by one something's happening, I start to care for them more, then they slowly drift away, you know how much does this hurt me? Even a simple thing, I want to shake hands but you don't want, to me that hurts... It's like you don't want to be a part of me anymore...

Everyday I feel like giving up, not to say kill myself or what, no I will never, but sometimes I feel like giving up and moving away and starting a new life... What's the point of staying if no one cares? I feel like one by one, slowly no one really care about me anymore, and I'm really hurt... I care so much, I do everything to make them feel good, like family, and some didn't even acknowledge or respond, and just shrug it off... It hurts... OK?

That's why I always have no mood because it seems something must happen without me even doing anything!